my head is throbbing with pain..my nose heaving with deadly mucus..worst i have a fever..i bet bong gave me the virus...the freakin virus took advantage of my weak immune system..for the past few weeks, i have been eating nothing but junk food for my snacks and fast food for my dinner and lunch..chowking, jolibee, and a lot of take-out foods...yuck...meat all the time..disgusting...now i really believe on the power of proper diet..my ultimate goal this summer clean living, to stay fit, healthy and be a vegetarian...

sisinga lang muna ako...

april 3 hayy...laguna..slide n dive wow...ang masasabi ko lang what an experience..hehe..typecast was far the best band who played.. aside from concrete sam...ala mars volta ang galaw..omar rodriguez lopez..i thought i liked it...nalungkot ako..sus emo....sniff....
trip ko mag slam pero nakakahiya pag ako yung nauna slam na slam na ko dun sa hampas ng drums ni don grabe combo to the max..gusto ko nga rin mag oyoy pero scary....mga punks kasi sila..bull..anyways i miss the garapata boys nyak...sana makita ko ulit silang tumugtog..

april 4 12:00
happy birthday to you ..happy birthday to you..
natats ako thanks to my friends...they gave me kiss hehe nice....me pahabol si nikki she gave me a short but sweet smack on my right cheek whike i was dead sleeping..uhhh..and oh nicole gave me a kiss too...wow..thanks for the pizza if not for that siguro namamatay ako sa gutom..di pa ako nag brebrekfast at lunch nun...sorry napagastos pa ng malaki..

i have to to rest now..gusto ko ng sinigang at kare kare..

itatagalog ko nahirapan ako mag ingles...finally im an official graduate..yey! ang saya parang nagmamadali nga ako kanina umalis, ewan ko kung bakit.ni picture ala..parang bayani agbayani..picture ng mga tao wala rin.. pero actually kasi ayoko maghintay ng matagal mom ko naawa naman ako siya lang mag isa kanina..kasi daddy ko walang pakialam un..ayoko lang wala lang...

masaya na malungkot dahil siguro yung iba di ko na makikita...
thank you sa lahat ng tumulong sa akin, sa lahat ng nakausap ko, sa lahat ng nakahalubiho ko, sa lahat ng umintindi sa akin, salamat sa mga naging concern..sa lahat ng naging kaaway ko..at sa may galit sa akin mamatay na kayo..sa mga naiinis sa akin..die!//hehe..

sa mga nagtitinda sa canteen salamat..at kay tita jeanette,,nye..tapos ung mga tao sa clinic salamat..di ko malilimutan ung pinapunta ako ni ms. quizzing quizzing..with i trust in you sign sa board..who is she again??>.. cno un?..fuck nalimutan ko kaagad..
anyways sabi nya i have mumps daw.. hehe funny.. pero kinabahan ako dun....at eto ung mga classmate ko nung 3rd year ha the best un cna selena, germae, karly, badong, mylene..inuman ng inuman ng tequilla yan tuloy nakasuhan pa..at 4th year tong c mirabel pim erika jac at bet..da best na mga classmate...ang babaet ng classmate ko biro mo nung nagkasakit ako nung retreat inalagaan nila ako tapos naiwan ako sa dorm magisa, gabi na nun tapos binalikan nila ako kahit umuulan.. ang swweeet nun natats ako dun..at nung 4th year da best din un!salamat.....pero eto da best din to cla ang mga kababata ko greys and pinx and ate rom..at eto pa ang matindi, nikki, bong, karyl, vany at nicole mga kaibigang kakaiba...tesa, alchel, macris,badong my labs, andrea liamzon.....
at sa iba pang mga tao....salamat sa mga tulong nyo sa mga tutor nyo sa akin tuwing lumalagpak ako sa matematika..nina cruz, sofia cirineo, bettina de ramos, janelle angeles, vitoria castro..salamat..sa mga nakausap ko at nahawakan ko at sa mga nahingan ko ng papel.. mga nautangan ko, mga nakasama ko sa lahat..sa inyo salamat...kalungot naman..pero ung mga madre nye..wag na akyo..katakot kyo..lalo na si sr. jomboy..si lulu ang tapang..hehe/..at si keropi weirdo..mamimiss ko ung isda nyang mukha at ung aquarium nya sa may computer lab...hehe


salamat sa incubus pa rin kay mike..hay di pa rin tapos itong hang ober ko....

salamat sa mga gurong binagsak ako..at sa pinasa ako..aus lang un..

ay maiba naman...si fpj as in FERNANDO POE JUNIOR asa me amin kakatawa.. ang cute pla nya..hehe maputi at papasa papable naman yak..asa harap ng bahay namin nag kakaway kaway kasi tong bhay namin kaharap ung bhay ng mayor kya yata andun cya...hehe nakakatuwa..me mga binabayaran para sumigaw ng FPJ! LOREN!! jologs....tama ba un..?

malapit na rin akong mag 18 pero saka na un...

me kilala ko ang labo nyang tao.
maliit pandak buhok haba
barbero sinungaling liar
kapal muks kapal muks..
sbe nya siya daw
pero sya pla talaga
ang galing nyang manisi
halatang siya naman talaga
bukas lagot ka
patay ka
tigok kang
hayop ka

ang sagwa nang style mo
sobra sa kabulukan
dapat mga ganyan tao
linalagay sa drum
nang hindi makahinga
pagkatapos balatan
ihawin sa baga
at pakain sa aso

masama to erease...
pero wag na sana maulit
lalo pa't sa pinakamalapit kong
fwend uupakan kita
kala mo
patay ka
lagot kang
hayop ka


PEACE!

god there gone.....mike's gone,brandon's gone, jose and the rest are gone now........i'm really not happy. i wish i had the power to go back and change whatever it has to be change. im crying now......

2 days have passed but still i can't get through with the whole thing yet. the whole stalking, the concert, the food that we ate, the money we paid, the hotel, the coniotics, the crowd, the heat, mike, brandon, jose, chris kilmore, ben...aHHHH.... it sure did hit my heart..

mike gave the biggest impact on me.he's a freakn angel.. he's the most amazing guy i've ever met..god i hope you would remember us duh..but oh well we were stupid, we were damn star strucked that we did not do anything..I was StupiD..yeah I wAS STUPID.. i should have talk to him or something.. i just stood in front of him with eyes poppin out uttered my name and that's it..argh what the hell did i do.!??!?i would never ever forget his hands that perfectly fit the small hands of mine.. it was soft and cold...and i liked it.

the whole experience inspired me to be a better person.. really.. mike's my idol right now.. he was very down to earth, kind, and friendly.. i just realized that i should be more gentle in a way... mayabang ako.. kailangan kong magbago....kung tutuusin sino ba ako sa mundo, ala...so i dont have the right to be arrogant and conceited..

im starting to build a good relationship with my mom again because brandon inspired me to.

aghh.....im crying........
thanks to those guys...

Mountain ranges
Mourning red bay at the bridges
Stab up at the coming blue horizon
Grey slides loosely off rooftops
A flock of little men touch down on the surface of the porchlight
Bronze fist solidiers return
To watch the twighlight across the faces
Skylights ignite and explode...

No one even lives here
We're too busy crashing our cars every morning at the same house
Paving the same roads...

And even we extend our lives, its only to be included..
In a world that's standing still..

And we forget that somewhere man is beside himself grief




i ain't going to stop listening to thursday..

i just had to place that line from thursday's this side of brightness..anyways.. ha i watched ASAP a while ago coz i was damn bored reading the newspaper.. i happen to catch sarah geronimo and his partner i dont know the name singing.." i'll let you go..now that your gone..why do i keep on asking why.."sure, was that right??..i forgot the title..anyway.. as i was saying..yeah both of them were good.. sarah looked good on her dress and hair..ohh i remember broken vow!..yes BROKEN VOW..im sick of hearing that song again and again.. pero kanina i believe it was live so i really had to watch sarah sing it..gusto kong makitang magkamali cya pero hindi, walang sablay si gaga...anyway..parang gusto ko tuloy maging singer o sumali sa singing contest..

medyo nakapagrelax na ko ng onti natulog talaga ako ng matagal...tomorrow's monday school nanaman makikita ko nanaman ung mga guro.. tapos..marami nanaman gagawin.. kelan ba to matatapos..

up to now i still dont have a school..parang ayoko na magaral. nawalan ako ng gana sa ust.. i was expecting to pass because i thought the whole exam was easy and all but to my dismay i failed the fuckn test..i didnt even reached the cut off grade so wala ng pagasa..

my mom and dad got mad and kinaanstawan pa ko ng mga kapatid ko..i wanna die.. hehe.. ulol wala na akong pakialam ngayon..kahit anong school tatanggapin ko.. wala nga akong ginagawa ngayon..ni hindi nga ako kumukuha ng mga applications kce nakakatamad..ewan ko di ko alam...